Yes, it's official. After three and a half years of nursing, Brendan weaned himself in December. I knew our nursing relationship would be ending soon, but I was caught off guard when it actually happened. Brendan cried himself to sleep for two nights and on the third night, he fell asleep without nursing at all. I had read about self weaning but didn't think it would happen for us. After all, breastfeeding had been Brendan's lifeline for so long. It was the one constant he could depend on for nutrition, comfort, and healing.
Of course, I am thrilled Brendan no longer has to rely on me to help maintain his nutritional needs. He is happily eating meats, fruits, veggies and dairy. Although I have to admit, I now understand how a newly weaned child must feel. I was not prepared for Brendan to stop nursing. If I had known I would be nursing him for the last time on that December evening, I would have cherished the moment more. I cried for a week after, missing that special bond we called our FPIES safety net.
I am thankful I was able to nurse Brendan for as long as I did, thankful I didn't cave to those who felt I should stop breastfeeding and push the food trials more. Most of all, I am thankful Brendan had an easy time with the weaning process. I couldn't ask for more!